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March 16, 2020

I try to write a post today, but struggle to settle into writing.  I want to write about the mundane, but can’t focus on those details.

Worry swirls around me, fading into the backdrop as I have dinner with friends, flaring up as we discuss that we shouldn’t get together again.  When we say goodbye, someone says, “See you in June,” and I’m not sure that it’s a joke.

Grocery shopping feels normal until I round the tissue aisle and see it bare.  It’s a joke, momentarily, and I pull out my phone to take a photo for my husband, but then each new aisle brings bare spots.  Although I’ve never, ever managed to buy matzah until the day before Passover starts, when I see it on the shelves I grab a box.  Is this finally-turning-into-a-responsible, proactive-adult behavior, or fear-of-what-will-be-in-a-month?

I want to write a post on the beauty of today, the crisp sunshine that whispered spring, but it’s windy in my mind, blowing gusts of panic that scatter words.

I want to write, but my mind is elsewhere.

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4 Comments
  1. Thank you for writing this. I am feeling similar. I want to write about the crips sunshine, but my anxiety is creeping in.. grocery aisles, zoomed meetings…it feels surreal.

  2. Joy Bakken permalink

    You so beautifully capture what many are experiencing. You communicate the conflict between wanting to see hope, when much seems hopeless. You close out your slice with a powerful punch when you state, “I want to write a post on the beauty of today, the crisp sunshine that whispered spring, but it’s windy in my mind, blowing gusts of panic that scatter words.”

  3. amyilene permalink

    I feel this, too…and I appreciate that you found some words to connect the disparate dots. Also, your slice had me wondering about Passover & what a smaller table will look like. Stay safe & healthy.

  4. but it’s windy in my mind, blowing gusts of panic that scatter words.

    Mine too. Captured so well.

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